Monday mornings are usually good to me but this morning, I couldn’t shake this gloomy and sad feeling. I was reflecting on some of the problems our church members are going through personally and my heart was burdened to the point of aching for them. It’s the feeling of helplessness on one hand and bewilderment on the other – “Why isn’t God doing anything about this? Where are you, God? Why won’t you come through for them (and me too, sometimes…)?”

Then, I had to take Serrie to school. As soon as we left the house, the song “Blessings” by Laury Story came on on the radio of my car. I didn’t recognize the song right away (I don’t usually listen to 105.3…), but my daughter started singing along! So, I paid attention to the lyrics…

“… what if Your blessings come through raindorps
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?”
I almost cried. Not because of the song, but because of the timing of the song. I needed to hear it exactly at that moment. That is a glimpse that God gives every now and then just so that I can keep going…

It is hard to see the goodness of God sometimes. It’s hard to feel the reality of the love of Christ displayed on the cross sometimes.
But He is there.
He aches.
He waits.
Until we are with Him and all tears wiped away.

PH